Thanks everyone, it still hurts when people ask about it....like at work a couple days ago, my boyfriend friend said he heard that I was going to be a mommy, and right then I had to fight to keep from crying. It is really hard especially knowing how much I want kids.
The good news, is that I have reliable net. The bad news, I still have limited usage cause it is now busy season at both jobs. I'm rarely at the inn any more. Just have been really busy with life. Trying to pay off a loan, and get settled down.