Thank you everyone for the warm wishes and sympathies, it really does mean a lot.
On another note, I've had an idea for a game, and since I can't get on regularly to start it now that means I have plenty of free time to think up and plan out the major details so we can perhaps get the game moving when I get settled and ready to get posting again.
Between multiple Breakdowns the same night I made a simple yet heartfelt image in his memory, I find that personally when I am overwhelmed like this whole ordeal has left my entire family, I can do myself more good channeling all the emotion into something more creative, rather than letting it suffocate me. Some have already seem the image on Facebook as it is now my profile pic, as well as my sister's after she saw it..
For everyone else who wants to see it, I have it uploaded here.
I haven't keeled over yet, I just lack regular internet access (which is as good as being dead anyway) so I can't get back to posting like I would like to any time soon since I have so much going on.
A few updates, since I love to brag about her... My little girl will be 18 months old this month, has just about got this walking business down, looks super adorable in her glasses (yes glasses at 18 months) and just lights up every time my dad and I go pick her up for my visitation. For those of you on my FB page you have seen the pictures I upload every time I have her, for the rest of you, well I'll throw in a link to a recent pic I have at the end of this post. If for whatever reason that doesn't work I'll fix it next chance I get.
I'm about to have to get real serious about finding myself a better job as this one just isn't cutting it when it comes to paying all my bills (including bills that are years overdue). Hopefully if I can find something that will give me better pay and steady hours I can get some of these bills back under control and be able to get internet access up and running again.
I recently applied for a better job (read; more steady hours and hopefully better pay) and got an e-mail back that they were interested in moving into the next step of the application process and just needed me to answer a couple questions via email. With any luck I can get this job, and with it the larger paychecks I really need to get my life back together.